Hi. My name's Cara.

I wish that I could meet me for the first time. I'm so used to thinking about me and about what I'm doing and I'm sick of it. I wish I could meet myself and take in everything objectively. I want to see all the strange mannerisms I do and see if I make people uncomfortable or if I am friendly. I want to know what I am really like. Everyone says it doesn't matter what other people think of you and that's true to a certain extant. But at the same time, how can you really love people if you don't know how they are perceiving you and the situation. I want to get out of my mind for a while and be in other peoples. I want to see how people see me and what my shortcomings are so that I can truly love people. I don't necessarily want to love people in the way that they want to be loved, but in the way they should and need to be. Maybe this isn't making any sense at all. I don't want to be a puppet for other people's needs, but to love them like Christ loves us - with all our worthless attributes and our myriad shortcomings and faults. This probably isn't completely possible, but I want to get as close to it as I can.